dia

dalam gelita malam, dia hampir menangis.
rasa diasak lalu hampir sahaja dia menitiskan ayer mata.
lihat dia seperti gagah, ah ilusi optik
manusia serupa dia juga punya secebis hati yang 'kecil'
dia bukan manusia mutan.

tertulis

kerana di setiap jalan buntu,
ada sesuatu yang ditelan,
hadam dan cerna,
untuk sesuatu yang lebih baik.

come whatever may

Yesterday, was a long day plus the chaotic situations at the examinations plus the butterflies feeling all over the time plus the unreasonable doctor I would say. Not that I hate him or what so ever, but hey doctor, we do have feelings.

Anyway on a second thought, I was thankful enough, let's just say bring it to me, I can handle this situations. Maybe this is just a small test to us, who knows at least we are going to be prepared to be bullied by the medical officers in the future.

Judging from the last event that occurred, I have no one to blame but myself. The efforts were not enough. I dragged myself too much on the emotional sides (missing home so badly). Last time I checked, yeah I'm not a multi tasking person. Imbalance pretty much ruined me.

I learned not to hang the hopes way high up,because the moment the hopes shattered, I was the one that obviously. Err, fragile.

I should get going. Buckle up some plans.

pulang

menunggu di jeti, bila awak akan pulang?
sabar, sikit lagi.
hari seperti berbulan lamanya, bulan ah peduli.
saya penat menunggu.
ada masanya saya seperti mahu melambai pada kapal, ambil saya.

imaginasi.

simpan

Perkara-perkara yang perlu disimpan di dalam kepala.

15 Julai 2012.

kuat

Bila terlalu meletakkan harapan pada manusia. Sakitnya tak terperi. Cuba sedaya letakkan pada Tuhan.

Kerana pada manusia ada dinding ego yang tingginya amat. Mahu runtuhkan? Cubalah. Boleh tapi memakan masa.

Dua tiga hari, ruang benak aku direnangi anasir-anasir. Tentang umur yang kian bertambah, tentang hidup yang belum bermula, tentang mereka-mereka yang aku sayang, tentang aku yang semakin penat.

Memang tak semua pun mudah, itu aku tahu. Manusia goyah seperti aku, dilanda bah sekali hanyut entah ke mana.

Semua serba tidak kena, mata meratah nota-nota, fikiran terbang, hati sekejap-sekejap berlagu, kemudian bisu.

*breathe in breathe out*

Sedang cuba melakukan 'surgery' anasir-anasir.

Doakan semuanya selamat.

#18

I need to ask you this question, do you like me?


We don't need reasons to like each other, because just like that we like each other.

p/s : I like you, ophthalmology.